much better

it's better to forget you rather than to endure this pain


oh yeah, my fake smile is getting prettier and more natural. am  not gonna be surprised if one day my fake and original smile is no longer distinguishable.

keep on smilling even it means nothing. after all, senyum itu sedekah.

again, my blog acts as a diary of a black-hole heart. you can always make a research on it, but u can never understand it. you'll find nothing as this super-massice black-hole heart can vacuumed all sorts of emotions, feelings in one time.

stop stipulating. stop making hypothesis. as you will still find nothing. there's a hole and you can never find the perfect patch.

but still, i'm smilling. senyum tu kan sedekah.

izinkan saya mencarut

people lie.

they make you smile and the next day they hit you with a hammer in your face.

help?

yea, they provide that.

doubt the sincererity though.

what you expect?

they gonna cry their hearts out for you,

stop it man.

this is no cindarella or bedtime stories,

this is life,

if u fall,

listen to a few motivating songs and get your feet back on thhe ground

cause to be honest, you are stupid to be thinking everybody cares about your feelings

as they too have their own fucking problems.

yea they may say, "saba beb,ingat, i love u"

yea yea yea been through that inspirational moment

shit.

you are killing me with your fake smile,

now that's the best weapon in the world.

I thought i'm mature enough to handle this stuff,

proven wrong today.

excuses aren't acceptable today.

be honest for a day to yourself.

you never really care, do you?

shit.

it was not meant to be a question.

you never really care.

yea, whatever.

listen to 'fix you' by coldplay and you know what i mean.

syukur

syukur Alhamdulillah. for everything.